BLEED MY HEART OUT ON THIS PAPER.

sometimes i ask for myself

why do i do that, i mean, write here
if nobody reads!!!
the answer is. I WRITE HERE 'CAUSE NOBODY READS!!

sometimes i try to expose my life through blogs, videos, orkut, twitter
and other things, but i can see now, sometimes i need some space of it,
i need to stop showing my life for anyone

I don't need other people to live, i just need God, and myself.
Today i got bored all day long, i neither even know why, i just was,

Perhaps i was dealing with my "anima", perhaps i was trying to make someone
realize me, i don't shame myself to say that, i need someone to realize me, i need someone....
I NEED A PERSON, a girl, a boy, a father, a mother, aunt, uncle whatever.

Everything in life was going very good, acceptance, clarity and all of my doubts was over
but, when u start to dig a pit of your life, things start showing up and make more and more
how can i say, ILL, yeah ILL.

I feel ILL, feel like i was sink in the ocean, i am in the meadle of the ocean, everything is gray, everything is cold, i don't know what i can do, i can't swim, i can't stay there, but there's just i thing i do into the ocean,
i float and see the horizon, i see the bigest of the wave moving toward me ......
Sometimes i want this wave hit me, hurt me, on my face, even kill me but ... this wave never comes.

please come wave, i waiting for u, for worse or for better, just come.
and u ( i don't know who) please save me, i am sinking into the water, JUST SAVE ME

I BLEED MY HEART OUT ON THIS PAPER, I BLEED MY HEART OUT FOR SOMEONE (I DON'T KNOW WHO IS THE PERSON, MAYBE MY SAVER)